Ben

Sorry I haven't blogged in for ever but I just been so busy and I don't even remember when I last saw a computer! Well allot of things happened to me last week. I got a call a 3 in the moring. Its was my mom she called to tell me that my uncle Ben died. Well at first I was surprised there were 3 people living in that house. Aunt Jacky who is in perfect health,Grandma actually shes my great grandma who doesn't even have the slightest clue on what day it is and is turning 97 soon and Ben who was just weight but not much. That just took me by surprise that it would be him over grandma. I didn't know the family well they live out in the country and I never talk to them much. But I knew them well enough to got to the visitation and the funeral. Well for most of the reception I talked with my cousins Jesse,Amy,Mary,Jen and Paul who is in the air force and came in from Europe just for Ben he was in his uniform and to see him cry in his uniform just broke my heart. Towards the end Jesse who I drove with told me to get outta here quick or we might get suck taking Grandma home. So when we got out to the car he left the lights on for the funeral and forgot to turn them off and his battery went dead. So guess who got suck taking home grandma?Us. Well that's how I got suck with Jacky she cried and cried on my shoulder and told me how hard it was. So I said I would stay with her a few days. I mean it was the least I could do. Right? Well taking care of Grandma was ok, all I did was feed her and listen to her crazy talk.Jacky I felt like I was going to cry every time she talked about Ben. they were my great aunt and uncle. They were going to be married 60 years next month. Well the next day I said I wouldgo out and get us lunch. She was calm and collective. But I came back to her house grandma was on the porch. I gave her her food and her reply was thak you Wendy. I started a her for a breif moment and went on theres no even a wendy in the family. But then again I cant remember the last time she actally said something sane. so I ignored it. As open the door I heard her old recored player blasting Patsy Clines Crazy. I loooked around the house. I finally found her up in her room huddled under the covers with old black and white pictures of her and Ben all on the floor in the bed...everywhere..I just sat down next to her.I noticedshe was wearing his wedding ring.

Jacky: Im lonley.
Me: Its okay,I am always here for you even after I leave.
Jacky: Any tips?
Me:Its okay it will get better. The feeling will never go away but itll get better. I promise,
Jacky: It just hurts.

By this time were both crying.And thats what we did for the rest of the night the next morning I left. But Jacky gave me her cat. I took the cat. But guys I cant take care of this cat. I was wonder if Jenna wanted it?Since she had to give the dog away? Or if somone else wants they can have it I just want to make sure it goes to a good home.